So Thursday evening I got a dear guest to my humble abode - my mom. <3
We had a lovely time together, and while she was here, we went to explore the nearby woods! The whole year I've been here now, I've seen these forest paths just a few minutes' walk from where I live, but for some reason hadn't wandered there by myself.
Ever since I was young, I've loved forests and lakes - in that, I am quite the stereotypical of a Finn. I love being surrounded by trees, sitting on a rock or a tree stump and just... enjoying the silence. Yes, the hum of the traffic is present almost constantly... but it's a calming place for me, the forest. The closer to a body of water, the better, too.
I need to go there more often. There are so many other paths, too, easily accessible to me as they are right by the bus routes. There are some pretty awesome cliffs and hills, for hiking and a bit of climbing.
In the past decade or so, I've allowed myself to get disconnected from... well, everything. Like I recently mentioned in one forum post, it's been easier to just... well, disconnect myself from the reality. From what was happening around me. Close my eyes, ears, pretend I wasn't there, pretend I wasn't being lied to - clutch to the belief that I was special somehow, that I wouldn't be lied to like all the others. It was easier to wipe my memory clean, erase every event I could right the moment they'd occurred. And I started being cooped up inside more. My social anxiety's grown worse each year as a result; mom was quite worried of my reluctance to meet my neighbors at all, but I reassured her I'm doing my best to be social elsewhere - farther away from home, to play it a bit safer.
I don't know. Guess I'm hoping sitting in the calm of the forest will help me get reconnected to this world. To this moment. To this reality.
....anyway. Ahem. As a result of one sleepless night, by the way, I created a new Tumblr where I spam my story's draft sketches.
I also have a new plant! Meet Trolli the Monstera! Why the name? Well, because Monstera is peikonlehti in Finnish: peikko = a troll, peikon = troll's, lehti = (in this context) a leaf.
Aaaand well, what else? Hmmm oh yeah, mom got me some Halloween decorations. :D Even though we're not big into celebrating it here, it was nice. xD
Also got a message from Kela! They've rechecked my student financial aid and will be continuing it!! Wooo!
Aaaand I had something else to write about, too, but I'm getting a little sleepy... so I might just go to bed-- unless I try getting through the final stretch of Halo: Combat Evolved. <__<;; I'm stuck trying to get out of that damn ship at the very end... Like, I love driving vehicles and I'm not too bad with a car - in real life. In video games, I keep bumping into walls and well, the Warthog keeps flipping over a lot.... sigh.
Anyway, hope you've all had a good, relaxing weekend, and that your upcoming week's gonna be awesome! <3